15. Back

Hello lovely readers!

Thank you all for your constant email to me asking about why I'm missing.. 

Well, I just finish my first exam for my uni and it was hellouttatiring but it's a total good experience as I met 2 really good friends and we studied almost all 4 papers together!

I was really sick till the end of the last two papers and I'm really glad to have my boy and friends by my side to take care of me and ensure that I had all the study information in my mind during my papers. 

Still recovering in progress though so will be updating soon with photos!

Like finally right?

Till then, 

Love, D

14. Home Remedy #1

Hello, remember I said I had a home remedy to introduce? 

Yup, it's really easy and cheap + you can multitask while waiting for it to be ready. 

I have very serious hair fall due to excessive dyeing of hair + bleaching and my ends are like super dry with lots and lots of dead hair there. It's totally lifeless. 

I wished I have more photos for this post - I tried taking while doing it but my phone ended super oily and the photos are super not up to standard. So do pardon me alright (: 

All you need is.. 

Photo credit: google.com

Using coconut is a wonderful and natural way for "saving" your hair. In face, this is probably the most effective conditioner ever, which helps with damaged hair growth. 

Here are some reasons why...

1. Coconut oil stimulates hair growth getting deep into its follicles. 

2. Promotes the scalp health fighting against such problems as insect bites etc

3. Moisturises dry hair. 

4. Adds luster, shine and softness to the hair. 

5. Prevents hair breakage and spilt ends, contributing to hair length 

6. Slows down hair loss

and many many more.. 

So what I did was really really easy!

Step 1

Pour the amount that you need in a plastic container. Usually I will have like 10 table spoon or more because I have thick hair and I want to max my results (kiasu much). Microwave it for 30 secs - Try not to go beyond that because it might hurt your scalp when you apply - I will let it cool after taking it out from the microwave for 10 secs tops. 

Step 2

Make sure you're wearing shirt that you do not want anymore + comfy because it may get messy. 

You can either pour some onto your scalp or just wet your palm with the oil. Massage your scalp and add the oil when needed. Massage for at least 5-10 mins or when your scalp is soaked with oil. 

Step 3

Start to work your way down to the tips of your hair. Usually I focus a lil more on more scalp and hair ends. I will soak my hair ends in the plastic container and run through with my finger tips. 

Step 4

Twirl your hair into a bun shape and pour the remaining oil in the middle of the bun and massage through (do this only if you have extra coconut oil in your plastic container). 

Tie it into a bun and wrap your head with a shower cap! 

Recommended to let it be overnight and washed it off the next day but I have serious fear of oil on my pillow so I usually would just let it sit on my head for at least a solid 2 hrs or more (up to 8 hrs). 

Washing these oil off your head is a nightmare (trust me)

Wash 3 times and let it run with lots of water for each wash. 

Small lil tips, last wash after conditioner, let it your hair run under solid cold water for 20 seconds or more. You'll not regret!

Results

I have been doing this for 10 times or less and inconsistently but the immediate result after each washed was really obvious. My hair is shiny + my ends feels smooth. Will definitely try to tolerate the oil and do it at least 1 week once for better result! Will update you guys again!

But so far so good! 

Till then!

Love, D

13 Field Camp Part 2

HE IS BACK!

Well, he was back a few days ago and away from me AGAIN. 

It was a really short book out for him idkyyyyy - hate his company - but but did enjoy his company for the short short weekend! I was really sick and he did took care of me pretty well (: Thank you hun

Well, about how I manage to go through that hideous 5 days.. 

I was pretty packed with school and work etc. There's exam, assignments to meet it's dates and the last two days I was really sick so I literally just lay in bed and I had a 21st to go to so yup! It was pretty okay just that deep down I really wish he was with me that night ): 

ANYWAY!

I was really puzzled and irritated ALOT by my LOSS of hair..

So I went to google about it and actually did find some really amusing home remedy!

Will blog about it soon!

Till then, 

Love, D

12 Field Camp Part 1

Well, I bet most of us girls hate this particular activity that will happen in any point of our life - unless you're that lucky to not have any guy in your life that so..... 

My dearest boy is having his turn on coming Tuesday and I'm dreading it but at the same time wanted it to happen as fast as it could so that it will be over and done soon! I will def be worried about him, not about him not being able to adapt but it being dangerous and stuff but I think and have faith in him to take care of him and his friends in camp. 

Can't wait for him to be back and hear hint talk non-stop about it.

Till then, 

Love D

11. You remember...

Clearly there are some point of your life you feel like this..

Well, that's pretty much how i'm feeling like every single day for the past i-don't-know how many months.. That's pretty scary you know? People have friends, family and boyfriend that supports them in whatever they're doing but not for me and it sucks. I hate studying and I never felt so much stress before.. this sucks totally. 

I just want to move out and be alone. Live like an american. 

10. Stress

This is how I'm feeling right now. 

Blogging in the midst of studying for my upcoming mid-test and I feel that I owe this space some explanations on why I'm neglecting it. Well, I just mange to get my Macbook! Yay :D but it also means I have to start saving up to do some clearing of debts... 

Well, I'm emotionally and physically drained. By what?

1. Family. 

The year hasn't started really well for my family. The market was excpetionally quiet, I bet not only we got affected the rest were also deeply and "silently" (literally) killed by the unexpected quietness of the cny season. Next was the health of my grandad, well thank you to those who had asked and visited my grandad, he has now returned home and have the company of my grandma. Earlier before, we attended a relative funeral. It was such a sudden news. Too sudden. We just met him to weeks back during CNY visiting at my house and never did we know that fall he had was it for him. I was there to send him off for his last journey. I never thought I would be so greatly affected by the emotions around, I couldn't help but cried and think of what would happen if someone closer to mean continue their journey else well. It's too painful.  

2. Work

Well, I would say I'm fully independent (financially) and with that saying I paid for every single thing I used, eat, utility, insurance, school etc.. And the burden is there, like really there. Plus with the shop being short-handed I couldn't really go back to my events job and I wouldn't have the heart to ask my mum for whatever pay I'm getting from my previous job - it's ridiculous. It's burden over burden. 

3. Relationship

My relationship with Brandon, was pretty on and off. We're def over the honeymoon period and the worst thing is, he being in the army makes him worry even more - I have no idea why he's worried. It's not like say I'm THAT attractive, in fact he's more attractive than I am. No guy would ever turn their backs to look at me so why worry BUT girls do turn their backs to take a second look at him. Tell me now, who should worry more? With him being sensitive on and off plus the worries I had in the mainland makes me more nerve breaking that I already am. I really wish for him to POP and get out of the 5-days-in-camp.

4. School

I started school on January and I had already submitted like say, two assignment? Done one online test, another online test coming in a few days time and an upcoming mid-test this coming Thursday plus an assignment due this coming month end, not mentioning my m9 test this on the 21st. See how long that sentence is? Yes, that's how long my march is going to be. *cross fingers* Please end it soon! Give me all your mighty will to just go through the rest of march!

This is how I look w/o my makeup. I miss sleeping. I hasn't sleep for more than 4 hrs every motherfucking single day. Please, someone tell me how this feels. I'm breaking down soon. I'm so tired but I just couldn't get to bed every single night! THIS IS SO SO SO BAD. I go to school trying so hard to stay awake - I usually knockout when I'm alone tending the shop at the front. I wonder how many customers walked in and see me alsp and the walked out not wanting to disturb me or finds me unprofessional. Come on, put yourself in my shoes. I'm really really really tired. 

9. Words

Hello guys, sorry for not being able to update as much as I did promised. Well there was some kind of happenings happening in my family therefore there are some changes in my own schedule. 

I'm currently working in my mum's shop which is located at Toa Payoh (Find us on facebook and Instagram! "nineteen niche") Which also means that I'm waking up at 6am every single morning, weekends included and I have to put aside my dating time with my bf and boy, work (balloon & twentyfourseven__), sleep and last but not least, blogging which is the worst of all. 

I should be motivated to blog even more, not because of wanting to be famous or whatsoever shit. The reason behind was, I'm lonely and I do things people least expect from me. I can't speak to my bf because she has her own problems too and I don't really know how to speak up. Boy got me into opening up to him, which I managed to do so, slowly, I guess but there are still some certain things which I kept it with me. 

To me, typing into this space gave me the confidence to do so because no one I know reads it (of what I know) yet as I didn't post it up on any of my personal social media platform. I wouldn't know if this post is going to make any sense but I'd learnt quite a lot of things from this huge hit. I was practically alone and scared, everyone started leaving and I have no idea what was I doing. 

Since young, I'm the happiest kid among my friends, I'm so called like the happy pills but there's this saying.. 

The happiest person, is the loneliest. 

And being the only child with no father doesn't make it any better. 

With this busy schedule of mine, I find it even harder to maintain both my relationship with my bf and boy. 

One being really busy and the other will be enlisting soon. Brandon did manage to pull himself over to the shop daily to accompany me since the change of my lifestyle but I'm afraid when school starts next year (praying hard if I were to get in) I won't have time for him as my weekends might be burnt away and he may be tired due to his training and stuff.

Trying to adjust to the changes now and making things better. 

Till then, 

Love D.